Motivation

Tomorrow is Friday! Which a huge deal because I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. This horrible because I am about five chapters behind in my statistics class. A friend in my writers group posted this video which I watched instead of doing homework. It is a great clip that I suggest you watch. It is great. I love the part about the genie that helps creative people be great.

My writers group is called "Tea with the Mad Hatters." It is the best group ever. A friend of mine decided to start a writers group and I was giddy when she asked me to join the group. It made me realize that other people think I can write too. Being recognized by other people makes me feel all warm in tingly inside, like I actually have a chance at doing this for a career.

Most of my group has decided to participate in NaNoWriMo. As I talked about earlier how I am also going to be participating. I am feeling anxious for November to start so I can begin working on the story that is coming together in my head. At the same time I don't want November to start because then I will be sleep deprived, caffeinated beyond reason and a crazed.

I told a friend what NaNoWriMo was and he didn't get it. He asked me if the novel was going to be published if I finished it in a month. When I told him that it wouldn't be unless I solicited it, he thought the whole thing crazy.

"What's the point of doing this?" was the question he asked.

I couldn't explain to him my reasoning behind wanting to do this. Wanting to write a novel in a month. Wanting to be crazed, depraved and insomniac from caffeine. If I succeed and write a novel in a month it means that I have done something very few people have done before. But it means more than just succeed at something most people will never try, it is a way to confirm that I can write. By participating in NaNoWriMo I am acknowledging my desire to be a writer. I am acknowledging my ability to write. I am acknowledging that I can be successful as a writer. Because the only way to succeed in the writing world is to write and to finish writing.

If I cannot every finish a manuscript I will never be a writer. To be able to write a story in a month is crazy, but the process of actually putting my story on paper will give me the confidence I need as a writer to continue. The confidence to move forward in life with gusto. And that is way I am participating in NaNoWriMo.