Meh.

2012.

Last year was definitely a meh year. Nothing horrifically tragic happened (to me anyway) and nothing overtly fabulous happened either. The year started with me being jobless, totally broke and living in a storage unit sized room in my parents house. It ended with me still totally broke, only now I am living in a spacious basement room (still in my parents house). All in all not very many exciting things happened. Mostly cuz I didn't try.

The most exciting moments were the few road trips I took, one to Lincoln, two or three to Loveland... and that's it. One of my very bestest friends pseudo graduated in May, but technically she'd received her diploma in December of 2011. So that really didn't happen last year.

A few of my other good friends bought houses, insuring I felt like an abject failure at life. Which, sadly, at the moment is fairly accurate, if you go by normal standards. I'm not married, I don't have kids, I am not in a relationship (serious or otherwise), I don't have a career, I don't own a car, I'm no longer in school, I don't support myself financially and I haven't taken life seriously for a very, very long time.

And even with all of that I feel happier right now than I have for years. For the first time in my life I am not scrambling to please someone else. I don't have to worry about teachers, deadlines, horrible bosses, and family members pressuring me into choices I don't want. For the first time in a long time I feel free. 

Not to say I don't have responsibilities, because I do. I have an awesome job, a good boss and occasionally I have to explain to certain family members that I will not be going to church for now (it's so nice to be able to choose). But even with all of that I have a freedom of choice that most people don't.

For example, at the moment I have vibrantly purple hair. It's not outlandish and neon, it's a dark purple that looks fantastic. But I was the one who got to choose the color. Some of you who have known me for a long time might be wondering why I would find that so novel, knowing that I had purple hair in college. The job I have now is relatively liberating, the dress code is minimal and so long as I show up on time and work hard I can pretty much do what I want. It's awesome.

I feel like this is going to be a time in my life that I look back on fondly. I have no one to answer too except myself and I love it. I know eventually I might want a serious relationship and to be tied down to one place by owning a house, but right now all I really want is the freedom to roam. The knowledge that with enough effort and dedication I can go anywhere.

I will admit that at first that idea was terrifying. I spent almost an entire year vacillating about were I should go next, what specific path I should choose for a career. It was frustrating. Not having a set guideline for life. No syllabus, no grading rubric, no corporate latter to climb. Nothing but the wind and a million choices. Terrifying. Electric. Almost elemental.

After spending months uncertain about anything I can now say I know what I want. I've just realized that it doesn't particularly matter when it happens. I am going to go to grad school, hopefully I can get my applications in this year but even if I don't it will still be there next year. No matter what happens in the next few days, moths and years all I have to do is keep moving forward. The only thing that can ever get in the way is myself.

Blogs of note... Mishi style

Several of my friends also blog, not that I ever talk about them. I am way to narcissistic to ever talk about anyone other than me. However, I do feel like I should share a list of blogs that I am looking forward to reading this year. (Also known as "I do not feel like actually blogging, lets do this lazy style).


Blogs that you should read, but only after reading mine:

1. just g!bs.
A blog written by a fantastic graphic designer. He is going to be blogging every day all year. I bow in his general direction. His plan is to have a monthly theme, it's pretty awesome (obviously, otherwise I would never read it).

2. Brittany the over achieving communications major.
Brittany pretty much just blogs about whatever. It's always interesting to me. She posts a lot of really cool pictures and tells funny/sad stories about her life. It's like an online diary for friends (maybe I should have said journal?).

3. Kate "for the horde".
Kate is my gamer friend, she is freakishly awesome. I don't regularly read her blogs, but the ones I do are always thought provoking and give me a different view of life.

4. Miss H
Miss H just started blogging, but I am super excited. I went to school with Miss H and she is a highly intelligent, motivated individual, she has just started her second semester has a full time teacher and the blog is dedicated to stories from teaching. In all reality she is like a human version of my older sister (my sister is a cyborg).

5. Sassy Mommy
I started reading Una LaMarche's bog my junior year of college and I have consistently read it for the last two years. Una just had a little baby boy, and he is freaking adorable, but she hasn't become a blogging mommy (as in everything is about her child). I read Una's blog because it is a fresh view on life and she is really funny.

6. LadyDraconix.
Um... I am not really sure what to say about her blog... she pretty much just blogs about whatever. She has started a trend lately of writing book reviews and they are helpful and thought provoking. Her blog is a lot like mine but written by someone more intelligent. She also blogs about design, since she is also a graphic designer.

7. Best friends blog (not that she ever updates it):
Yeah, she never blogs regularly, she's worse than me (I didn't think it was possible either). But when she does blog it is always worth reading. Although I am biased, since she is my best friend. Who never updates her blog. (hint hint).

Her most recent goodwill purchase.

So there is my lazy post. Isn't it great?

Best of College

From 2007 until 2010. The best moments in pictures. Unfortunately I do not have pictures of some of the most epic moments. Or at least those pictures are not exactly internet appropriate. Yes, you know which pictures I am talking about.

These pictures are not in order. I am way to lazy to do that. I thought about captioning them all ... but that would take more energy than I want to put into this post.

Enjoy the snapshots from my college life.



























































































































Yes... There are way more pictures. This was about half of them. I decided that I will just post them tomorrow.