The joys of beings broke

In high school I thought I understood what it felt like to be broke. I didn't, I did understand what it felt like to be locked in a mental institute though. I did not understand what being broke really meant until this last year. I took so many things for granted as a child, I really want to be back at that state economically, when I can take things for granted. Like clean clothes, it is expensive to wash clothes. Or books, I love books, but they are fucking expensive. Toilet paper is something most people take for granted, (I have a mild paranoia of being stuck in a bathroom without toilet paper).

There are still things I should value more than I do, like education, but whatever. There is now one thing I will appreciate more, cooked food. It is so nice to be able to walk into a room that has already cooked food. It is also really nice to have normal food. I am going home for the end of this week, and I didn't want to have a bunch of food spoiling in my room when I was gone, so I didn't get any groceries this week (that and they are really expensive) so for lunch I had the pleasure of eating a peanut butter cheese sandwich. That was all I had in my room. It was gross. The only reason I tried it was because a friend had recommended it.

It didn't help that the bread was an everything bagel from Panera. Don't get me wrong, I love Panera, but the toppings were a bad idea. I think it would have been better had the cheese not been melted... it was just a gloppy mess that sort of glued my jaws together. Not pleasant.

I am looking forward to going home and having real food.

Living battles

At work today I was blasting "Battlefield" by Jordin Sparks when it hit me. I look like an idiot when singing silently with my mp3 player. For the first time in almost seven years someone scared me so bad I almost peed my pants. I was focusing on my work when someone came into the room, I didn't hear because I was blasting music, and grabbed my shoulder. Scared the shit out of me. I was on guard for a few minutes, but it is a really good song. It happened again. So humiliating.

I had a really good point I was trying to get at... Damn. Well... Just kidding. Hahaha... Fail.

So at work we are getting new carpet. Which should be a good thing. But it's not. We have been playing musical furniture. We move all the furniture from one room to another and then back... so aggravating. I think carpet layers should be able to put the carpet down under the furniture. I know this will never be able to happen... but I can dream. Oh yes, that is what the point was.

Life is full of battles. Proving to your teachers you deserve to pass their classes, even though I never show up or do homework. Convincing the police that you really were going the speed limit. Telling your boss that you deserve that raise. Wiggling your way out of curfew. Getting you parents to let you drive the car for the very first time. The intense feelings of realizing there is no more toilet paper in the bathroom. I think that one is the worst.

All the hurdles that people fly over everyday should be considered epic battles. That makes every person a hero/villain, because at some point we are one and the other. It just depends on how the story is being framed. I, of course, am always a villain. It pays more. I get annoyed when people whine about not having an impact on the world. If everyone had a world wide impact only people that have a universal impact would be noticed. It's life to only make baby waves, but baby waves have a longer lasting effect. Throw a big rock into a pond and it will have a big wave followed by after shock. Throw a handful of pebbles into a pond and there is chaos, a much longer after shock and ripples. Lesson, since of course people need this spelled out. One person can make a wave that while imactful does not last, but several people doing the same thing will have little impacts that end up with a huge explosion. Team work is the best way to build a lasting image that will shake the world.

So when you go out today to take the world by storm don't forget to take you friend with you. And always pack extra toilet paper.

Twiddiction and Buffy.

Or better known as the "scary twilight fans from hell" the twiddicts. The Twilight Addict, get it? Hahaha. Yeah it isn't very funny. Those girls are freaking scary as hell. Teenagers in general should be avoided. I have decided to get a cross necklace. Teenage girls are evil incarnate, right? Therefore it should work to repel the evil before it can bitch slap.

At work today one of the maintenance guys, they're currently replacing the carpet, was talking about how Eclipse was rated the worst movie so far. His daughter freaked. Apparently she went online and started showing him reviews to prove that this movie was in fact the best. Which it is. Not like it took any work to make it better then the previous two. Seriously. Twilight is sooooo overrated. If I was Bella, which will never happen because I have a brain, I would have left Edward on his sorry ass and found someone else to turn me. After being turned I would beat Jacob into submission and rule both men. Then I would have the best of both worlds. Best story ever! Oh and I would totally kick Buffy's ass if she showed up. Just saying.

I had a disturbing moment a few years ago (shocking). One of my (former) friends compared me to Bella. At the time I had a huge crush on this guy and was freaking about it. I can still clearly remember what she said. "He just doesn't understand that you will always love him. You're like Bella, you will always be there for him." Her words were mildly disturbing.

Until recently I hadn't even thought about it. Under more scrutiny I realized why it bothered me.

1. Bella has no personality and really pisses me off.
2. I so didn't love that guy.
3. Bell sucks!
4. When had I ever said anything about always being there?
5. Bella pisses me off.
6. I know I was bitching, but I wasn't asking for advice.
7. Why on earth would any self respecting women compare herself, or her friends, to Bella Swan! WHY! I don't understand.

Comparing someone to Bella is like telling them they are vapid and obsessed with dead things. Along with being clingy and having no self respect. Grr. So annoying.

I really wish that Buffy and Twilight would merge so that Buffy could kill Edward's ass. Then the story would be interesting.

Dive Bomber Mouse ... takes over the world

I was at work minding my own business, when all of a sudden my mouse jumps across the screen and starts tweaking out. I was a little surprised but I figured it would finish tweaking in a few seconds and then not do it again, ever. Once it had decided to be a cooperative piece of electronic ingenious technology I went on my merry way assuming everything was just peachy now. And we all know what assumptions do... So I now have a mouse that works approximately half of the time I want it to. The other half it chills in a corner of the screen refusing to move. It makes me want to go back to the good ol' days of non-optical mouses... Is it mice or mouses?

I am going with mouses because it should make people realize that I am talking about computer mice and not Pinky and the Brain. Although I love Pinky and the Brain, best kids show ever! EVER! Nothing they have on TV now even comes close to the awesome shows of when I was a kid.

Except for maybe Avatar: the Last Airbender. That is a pretty rockin' show. Although it the movie seems to be dubious, I have only heard bad reviews ... really bad reviews. It makes me want to cry. I spent hours looking forward to this movie and all I hear is that it is terrible. *sigh* it is enough to drive someone into a caffeine drinking frenzy.

Avatar: the Last Airbender is the real avatar. The people who decided to put out "Avatar" (Sarcasm Quotes) the same year as The Last Airbender are poo heads. This movie has been showing previews before "Avatar" did, and they just jump up and are all like "I want to make a film using a plot that is waaaaaaay over done, then name it after a movie that is going to come out a few months after I do, on top of all the other stupid stuff I am also going to put subtitles in an "original" font that looks just like papyrus... I am such an awesome movie, Watch me watch me!

"Plus I started a 3D crazy so anyone who wears glasses is going to have a fun time watching me! Oh yeah, btw I am going to push a huge agenda 'cuz that sounds fun! Also the only real reason to watch me is for the special effects, so you might as well watch a documentary on how the effects were made 'cuz it would give the same feel."

And that is why I refuse to watch "avatar" it is a sham that should have put a good plot before the special effects. A movie isn't worth watching unless it has a good plot, good acting and good effects. So "avatar" is out.