Quirky habits

I was re-watching Trigun last night and could not remember what episode Wolfwood dies in. This was a very upsetting realization. If I don't remember what episode he dies in I can't skip it. I have a bad habit of refusing to believe when one of my favorite characters gets killed. In most of my favorite shows they kill my favorite character. It is upsetting to watch my favorite character get killed, I refuse to do it twice.

I wish I could say that there are only a few series I do this with, but no, I avoid having to confront a fictitious characters death more than once. Unless I really disliked the character. I really wish that I could like the main character in show because then I would have a higher chance of my favorite character not dyeing.

Although that doesn't necessarily work. Spoiler Alert: in Gungrave my favorite character was the main character and he dies at the end. I am not sure that series should count though, technically Brandon Heat was already dead before the show started, he had just been resurrected (in a manor of speaking) to kill his best friend. Wow, that is depressing. Moral is to not watch depressing shows.

In case you were wondering (not likely, but to bad for you) here is a list of shows in which my favorite character dies:

Trigun
Gungrave
Full Metal Alchemist
Chrono Crusade
Burst Angel (Doesn't say that she dies, but implies it)
Cowboy Beebop (Also implication)
Naruto


That might not seem like a lot of shows, but I took each death personally. One of my previous roommates was very upset to find me crying hysterically when she had come back from class. The only thing I could say was "Th-Th-They,They Bo-They Both die dammit." She found it mildly disturbing that I was depressed for a week over a fictitious characters death. Like I said earlier I take my favorite characters deaths personally, it's like a slap in the face from authors. "I will create this marvelous person you will fall in love with only to kill them!" That is what an author tells me when a character dies.

Maybe I am to dramatic, take things to seriously, or am just deranged, but I empathize with characters on a level that leaves me stunned when they die.

Hence my not wanting to be forced to accept their impending demise when re-watching shows. But this is why I love Google, a little bit of research and I can be happily assured I will never again be traumatized by an unexpected death.